I was happy to back to the loving kindness exercises but was not super excited by this task once started. I know I am making it harder than it is honestly as I read through the lines over and over again. I think it's because even though loving kindness is centered on helping others and reaching out to others I feel like I am still searching for a better loving kindness from within myself. I am very easily distracted and to have to read lines over and over I felt like my mind would wander beyond what I was supposed to do and not focused on the task. I much prefer listening and being able to focus that way.
During the assessment I really tried to be honest with myself. I found that I have been questioning my spiritual development lately and wanting to grow more in that area. I also have a great desire to improve my health which has not been great over the past few years. I did start that process and found through some therapy that I wasn't doing all I could do or at least not in the right direction. So I would say I have many things that are started or a work in progress. One thing I want to incorporate is more fitness including yoga. Before this last pregnancy that really gave me some lating health issues I was working out 6 days a week with Yoga on one day a week minimum and I loved the place I was at from a fitness standpoint. I have made huge strides in combating my insomnia so that is one great improvement because a lack of sleep will mess with every aspect of your life. I have been doing some meditations (mostly guided) that help me relax my crazy mind and give me the ability to shut it off so I can go to sleep. During a discussion board someone suggested to me that adding a morning meditation routine may help with stress relief throughout the day so I am going to try that as well and see if I notice a difference.
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